Create the fork in the road and own it

Portland coast path

Portland Coast path sign

I’ve been thinking more about the path I’m on. where it’s leading me, where I’d like it to lead… I realise we always choose our path even if it’s not the one we want to be on, after all if things happen as a manifestation of our thought, intent, feelings, beliefs and action, we must have chosen it, created it. We put out, so we got back.

Yesterday I find out I have gallstone(s), sigh, pain in the arse, well, abdomen anyway. ๐Ÿ˜‰

I’m grateful it’s not worse, I have been feeling more grateful for alot of things lately, it matters. I’m alive… so I should be grateful. ๐Ÿ˜‰

I put in too much crap over too long, now I got these. So, one area that really does matter more now is what I put into myself, food and drink wise, if we are what we intake...

Notice I didn’t say we are what we eat. The reason is we are not just what we eat, we are what we think, manifest, therefore we create, we take in to much crap that has influence over this, stress, bad habits, media, news, all this effects us. I do think stress was a big factor in this personally… So what next…

Being mindful of making better choices, all we have are choices

Simple things have big consequences at times. Makes sense to be more mindful of the path laying out before us when we make choices, it’s not the choice that counts, it’s what comes after. Looking back I can see myself making wrong choices, seemed small at the time (probably naive me really), turns into something significant looking back, some I do think, if only!

There’s no bloody map, only choices…ย If each choice was a fork in the path, that’s a heck of alot of forks in a lifetime, alot of alternative lives I “could” have experienced, no matter I am, somewhere else experiencing it… ๐Ÿ˜†ย I digress… ๐Ÿ˜‰

Being a bit more careful about what I do chose to intake should be a big step in the right direction, time will tell, it’s the stress of certain things I feel harmed me more than anything else, that’s being addressed constantly now. It’s only been the last two or three years I have stressed this way, seemed I just couldn’t stop it, change it.

I decided about 8 weeks ago to say enough is enough, I then stopped worrying about what I were stressing about, things turned upwards fast. Bit late for the bloody gallstones! ๐Ÿ˜†

I knew the stressing changed nothing, did nothing about what I was stressed about… so I had to stop worrying, caring if ya like, don’t get me wrong, what I stressed about still matters, I just knew that stress itself did sweet feck all for me but grief and pain, hassle.

I’d had enough.

I started eating better, relaxing more, meditating more, listening to relaxing music like this tibetan bowls, drinking more water, juicing more,ย breathing consciously, seeing others more often, felt grateful more often, smiled more often, wrote more, read more, which all helped make a change for the better.ย I should take up tai chi again but do it properly and consciously, daily. That’s something I’d like to do.ย Striking a balance for all round well-being has to be the aim. Yin Yang. ๐Ÿ˜‰

I am grateful for it stopping me on this path and making me sit up up and take notice, take control.

I didn’t sit and accept it. ๐Ÿ˜‰

I started making better choices.

Gratitude has real tangible value, be grateful more often

Being grateful for what we have brings us more to be grateful for, something I too often and too long underestimated, to my detriment. Not any more, thankfully. ๐Ÿ˜‰ See. ๐Ÿ˜†

I noticed it when doing the lottery over the last 4 or 5 months, just at the point of paying, I’d say “thanks for the winning ticket” ย and it usually raised a smile too, but what happened next was interesting, I did have three numbers several times over these months, put in perspective, I did the lotto about 15 times, won about 6 times…

Ok it’s only a tenner, but I was grateful and told the cashier again when I claimed it, with another smile. ย ๐Ÿ˜€

I started noticing I was finding money or things I’d thought I lost somewhere about the home, often I’d find these things in places I wouldn’t expect to find them. I were grateful, again. I say thanks before bed now, for all good things of that day, and the lessons any bad thing taught me.

Bearing in mind the last post and the power of words on water, I tell each cup I drink it’s beautiful, healing, and I love it, then thank it, then enjoy it. ๐Ÿ˜€ I’m not nuts, honest!

I showed gratitude before the scan yesterday for it not being life threatening in any way or too serious. . . I’m grateful it’s only a gallstone, or two.

I’ve alot to be grateful for. Not least my healthy family, a roof over my head, food to eat, a life to live.

One word… thanks. So much weight, value. :)

I’m grateful you are here reading this. ๐Ÿ˜€

I’m grateful, daily.

Dropping the doubts of our potential, we are that good

Beat the ever present naysayer inside, drown them out with positive action

We all have that little voice inside saying “you can’t do that”, “you ain’t smart enough”, “you aren’t brave enough”, “she won’t like you”, “you shouldn’t believe that”, ย “you write crap” . . . (oh wait, that’s just mine ๐Ÿ˜‰ ) annoying little bastards aren’t they, these naysayers!

Know your potential, something I’ve always believed about myself is I can do most what anyone can do. . being deaf made me that way, I couldn’t let it be a barrier to ANYTHING I did in life, if I could help it. I was never gonna get a telesales job ๐Ÿ˜† or such. So within reason, what you can do, I’d damn well try and do, just as well, sometimes better. :)

In fact, being deaf has probably been the reason I’ve found out I was good at certain things. I’M grateful for being deaf at times. :) It made me challenge myself, living in the hearing world and not signing at all proves that!

I know this about myself, so what stress and shit about stuff I know I can deal with really. Odd, but realising this gives me power to do exactly that, deal with it and deal with it I am doing, with the right mindset to do so, I knew this post would help me. . . ย :)

An act of kindness changes the world. Be kind to yourself too!

Being ready for whatever comes and embracing it, simple as it sounds, is not easy but it is necessary.

I realise at times I would stress or worry, clam up, if something happened I didn’t expect, naturally we all do to an extent yet I also realised it makes dealing with it ten times harder than it need be.ย If we embrace it, look at it without too much emotion we see things a little clearer, so it’s easier to see some form of solution, or at least gets you asking the right questions.

Some things ya just don’t plan, or can’t expect to know will happen, but what we can do is control how we react to it, at least try. Some things you are better off ignoring, others you shouldn’t ignore, yet how often do we get them right? Me, I ballsed up a few times I tell thee. :(

There’s alot to be said for that phrase ~ “roll with the flow” ~ surely it’s the path of least resistance? ๐Ÿ˜‰

But knowing we can do it is half the battle, rolling with the flow should make the other half easier. In theory!

I know I can do it.

Do it with all your heart or not at all

Everyone knows that saying, if you want something done properly, you gotta do it yourself.

Right? That’s because you care, care enough to want it done properly, it matters. If it’s not done right it won’t sit well with you. We all been there.

I realise something else important recently, your heart governs alot, due to feeling and often our hearts overrule our heads do they not?

Our head wants want thing, heart decides another… but if your heart was in line with your head and wanted the same, it would be more likely to happen… it’s usually this conflict that causes us issues, you say, Oh i’d love the lotto win, but your heart says that’s not gonna happen, so it’s unlikely it will.

So, we gotta line that feeling up with what we think about, with intent, from the heart. Whatever creativeness we have we usually do it wholeheartedly and it works, gets us good results.

I realise if it don’t resonate with my heart and feeling, it’s not worth it really. So, no point me thinking about whatever it is.

I know what I want to do, what makes me feel good so I’ll do more of that. :)

Heartfelt things are beautiful things.

Whatever I do, I’ll do it from the heart, or not at all.

The path looks better already :)

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