Timing is everything!
What a time to be offline when I have seen so many familiar faces...like on facebook!Ah well, never mind as I am trying to get online asap I will catch up. ;o)
What have I missed then?
Anything new happening?
Sorry it has been a while since I wrote, will start doing more and more often.
Surprised by all those I see on facebook, faces I have not seen in 20 years...in some cases!
That long?
Sheesh...time flies!
Back soon!! ;o)
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Rob Sellen @ 8:39 PM, , links to this post
"Dam greedy banks"
Done it again, ripping me off with charges...costing me my connection..yet again!Have had enough of the hassle from them.
I am astonished at the greed they show.
I went £2 over my limit...that's 4 dollars, and got a bloody charge which has wiped out what I had for my connection!
Bastards.
I am now going to write another letter to the bank to sort this out.
Meanwhile, looks like I am back the library like I am now writing this.
I am sick of the stress and hassle of struggling.
I will be on here as much as possible while waiting for that to sort out.
If I can do a review, or sell a few things from here it may help.
I will NOT let the banks get away with that sort of greed.
As usual shit customer service!
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Rob Sellen @ 2:48 PM, , links to this post
"New niches if I stay online"
I love blogging on here but obviously it's not enough, I have now started to really plan out that I will do with things, my other blog I will completely revamp and refocus it.The portlandpowerblogger one that is.
I would like to keep this blog just as it is but improve more and blog to it more, like twice a day or at least once everyday.
Having thought about things a little more I know I need a few more niches, if I can stay online that is what I will be aiming for and I think I found one or two that will be good. :o)
Nevertheless there is also an idea I have which will spark some controversy and yet it will hit on some real truths...more than I can say at the moment, but those it's aimed at will not like it!
Tough... :o)
It will be an interesting thing because the twist to it is crazy!!! :o)
Everything is going to change for me and I will make it the springboard I need to get OFF benefits and blog full time.
But they say "If you don't ask you don't get"
So..
I AM asking, can YOU help me stay online so I can get this controversial idea off the ground and running?
Can you help me stay online so I can blog more on this blog?
I will be doing far more on here from a deaf person's perspective and it WILL be unique because although I AM deaf, I am in the hearing world... :o)
Someone pointed out something about me that really made me sit up and take notice!
So... Can you help?
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Rob Sellen @ 3:15 PM, , links to this post
"Can you help me help myself?"
Bad night sleep last night, with the frustrations of yesterday heavy on my mind and the reality I could lose my connection any day I have to act, do something to ensure I can stay online at least long enough to keep the ball rolling and push it harder.The truth is I simply what i do get in benefit is not enough and I have to send out cv's and letters every week which is denting what little I do have.
Something I am at a loss about here is the sheer amount of companies and employers who blatantly ignore the letters.
Of the 22 I have sent out in the last two weeks I have had TWO replies!!
Do people just not bother anymore?
I remember after the "black weds" in the start of the 90's when we left the ERM and all got laid off from work, I got a reply to 90% of what I sent out.
Didn't take long back then to get another job, and it was a bloody recession!
Shocking...it's getting as bad as customer service...non existent.
So...what can I do, and more importantly whats the plan for me now.
Well I would like to say I think I am getting better with this blog simply because I try to give better value in every post, I mean I have always strived to do this, but lately I have realised the power of giving over anything else.
The pleasure if giving is better than the pleasure of receiving for me, always has been.
The purpose of this blog was not to make money, but now I have to inject it into the blog so I can keep giving and giving more.
So if you can help me help myself I would be grateful for that and I could keep on keeping on and give bigger and better content.
How can you help me?
No.. how can I help you... ;o)
I would like to make some more good long post with tips, tricks and possible ideas for you to utilise in your blogging efforts or life efforts even.. ;o)
But I need to get a certain amount of income to enable me to do that...
So what can I offer you?
My screensaver which is just £5 (10 dollars), pic samples can be found on the blog sidebar...if you prefer dollars, just use the beer icon below and state in the message box...
"I want your screensaver please" and I will manually send it you. ;o)
If you really like that screensaver, or have pictures of your own you would prefer in a screensaver... just let me know, for a price of $20 I will create your unique screensaver from your pictures, up to a max of 20 pics and they must all be the same size.
If that appeals...again use the beer icon. ;o)
If neither of those interest you, how about this, one of the fastest ways to add a "income link" to your blog is using the 100% commission products as in the sidebar.
The link you add is so simple to do and you only need one sale for it to be free to you.
Here's an idea for you... you most likely blog and that means you are writing post or articles.
The Article easy one is great, a solid ebook of about 50 pages and very well written by a friend of mine, Martin Avis, which would help ANYONE get started writing articles or blog post etc.
Articles can be a great way of getting traffic.
Why not write a great article on your topic that leads to you pointing your link out for this product, the post or article is a top quality on on your niche topic, the teaser you have is...
"Want to write great articles on your (topic name) blog, website or for others to use on their websites with a link to you?"... "You need this article easy report" :o)
Or something to that effect, the point is you are showing by way of a great article.
Go as far as write a great article to post to the article directories with a link back to the very post on your blog where you write about how you create great articles... ;o)
If you like the idea of creating your own 100% commission reports, go grab the one which gives you the scripts to utilise for this.
Create a great little report on your topic and your readers may grab it, more so if they can resell it via a link on their blogs...all the while you are getting more readers of the report and your blog...you would include a link to your blog wouldn't you?
You could have affiliate links in there so you continue to earn from the report long after its sold.
Offer an extra free bonus to those who subscribe to your feedburner email set up. ;o)
Maybe you like using forums, of have your own forum... if so how about 20 pages of useful content you can use anyway you like?
I wrote this and I also include ideas on how best to capitalise on it.
The ideas may surprise you... ;o)
Or would you rather join my forum? Set goals and reach them. :o)
Well maybe you just have a big heart like me and decide..
"Hey I want this fella to keep on blogging, so I will just plain old donate to his cause...?"
Hey...thanks.. ;o)
The beer icon is just for that. ;o)
If you can help me stay online I can take this blog up a notch and do more over delivering on content.
I am most grateful for you being my reader and do hope I can continue to create for you.
Thank you for any help you can give me to keep on keeping on, and hopefully I can stay online at least till the benefit office recognise my disability.
I am writing to my MP next. :o)
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Rob Sellen @ 10:21 AM, , links to this post
"How screwed up can it be?"
The silence is not golden at the moment for me I must admit!Somethings certainly not right with the way this seems and I would guess you would agree after reading about this...
I have posted before about the fact I made claims for disability help because of my deafness, now I have been turned down recently for jobs because of...you guess failing health and safety due to...my ears.
Now some of you know I DO hear things with hearing aids etc, but the problem is I can't hear where the sound, noise (possible danger) is coming from.
Not a good situation obviously, so I mentioned this to the benefit office and asked them to take it into consideration when deciding my "disability claim".
Ok they said...
Now I get another knock back...no sorry... your not "deaf enough" in a politer way.
As I said before...
How dare they!!
And the biggest cheek is... they say "sorry about that, but we will make sure you have a disability adviser" ??!!
Look... I am either deaf or I am not!
No giving me bullshit like that, it's "yes you are" or "no you are not".
Simple... no?
I can appeal...what again?
Thanks. :o/
Another three month wait?
Nothing I can other than that, what a stupid system when others out there fake it with "bad backs" and crap.
Then I am on the bus coming home and I see a mate, get talking and I told him of this and you know what he told me?
Them smack heads (heroin addicts) (names not being revealed ;o)) are getting "incapacity benefit"...!!
What? WTF is going on with this country?
Smack heads who are NOT forced to take that crap are getting MORE than me to live on!!
They can't work??...Most never have, never will.
Makes me feel like all the tax, Nat insurance I have put in when I was working, was for nothing!
So...it stinks, what can I do?
Any comments?
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Rob Sellen @ 8:21 PM, , links to this post
"What a lesson, at 5 years old"
I'll never forget the day and how it's influenced my whole life from there onwards and I was just a little 5 year old lad who was put on the spot and acted with an old head in a split second.So what am I going on about now? ;o)
It was a lovely day, we were all at school sitting in the hall for assembly, I gazed out of the floor to ceiling windows over looking the outdoor swimming pool, watching the shimmer of the sun on the water made me feel good.
I felt like I was anywhere but where I was until the headmaster stood on the stage and addressed us all, his voice snapped me out of my trance and I turned to face him.
"Good morning everyone" he said, "we have a special guest today who wants to talk to you all, so please welcome to the stage... (forgot the name?!) " as he motioned over to the man with his arm.
The man stepped up and slowly started to speak to us all while scanning over us kids "hello everyone, I am from the Royal National Institution for the Deaf, RNID for short and I believe there is a deaf child here today?"
"Dam" I thought... everyone turning to look at me, the man spotted me and ask me if I would like to stand up...to myself I thought, NO not really but slowly rose to my feet felling a little embarrassed..."yes sir" I said, I noticed the surprised look on his face.
"Ok nice to meet you and what's your name?" he asked...
"Rob" I aid sheepishly, wishing I could sit down and let him get on with it.
"Great well Rob, I am here today to help you as well as others with something I think you may find makes things easier for you" as he held his hands up and signed to me "hello Rob"...
I must have looked perplexed because he then asked me if I knew of any signing at all, when I shook my head he asked if I would like to try some and everyone else could try it too.
"No thanks" I said...
Shocked he ask me "do you feel uncomfortable about it or is there any reason as to why you don't want to?"
"No I don't need it, I can talk and if I start to learn that then everyone else has to as well, but if I talk only I have to learn it" was my reply, where this thought come from I had no idea.
"Well that's ok, we can all just try the very basics, the letters" as he held his hand up to show the vowels being signed, "you can all try this" he went on...
I sat sharpish...he noticed and thanked me for talking to him.
We all started to do the signing, myself very reluctantly as I felt singled out for this.
That man was not on that stage as long as he hoped, after the assembly the headmaster called me to his office, by now I thought I was going to be told off.
As I entered the office I saw the man also there sat with a bemused look on his face, "your speech is great Rob" he said, I thanked him, looked towards the headmaster in anticipation of a "telling off" which never came...
"Rob, I am proud of you, you showed an old head on your shoulders and everything will be done to help you continue the way you are, well done."
I was pleased to not get the telling off and not have to learn to sign.
I asked him to explain what he meant by old head on my shoulders! ;o)
"Two things happened today" he said, "one, YOU made the decision that will shape your life and two, you gained something from your friends that no-one else could have done, that is... understanding".
The man put his hand out for me to shake it and thanked me and wished me good luck...I shook it feeling like I had achieved something for me.
The very next day I noticed all of my friends were looking at me alot more when talking to me which helped me lipread them better.
It was not till years later I realised the significance of that day and exactly what the headmaster meant by that "understanding".
By me taking that stand and saying "if I have to learn that everyone else will have to too"
I saved all my friends some learning curve they wouldn't have wanted and THAT meant they knew without really realising it that they owed it to me to try harder with me.
And they did, they did ME proud...they helped me become who I am.
They helped me become part of the "hearing world".
THANKS to all of them and I know some read this blog, they may even remember that day. ;o)
That day will never leave me. :o)
Amazing how switched on we are as kids without even knowing it.
Any thoughts?
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Rob Sellen @ 10:49 PM, , links to this post
"How do I start blogging"
This is something EVERY blogger has thought of at least ONCE. ;o)For the obvious reason we all had to start...somewhere.
I still get asked this question and it is something you are going to HAVE to deal with if you want to blog, so ultimately the easiest way is to just start! ;o)
Ok...then the other questions start...
- "how?"
- "what about?"
- "can I?"
- "nothing to blog about have I?"
- "will anyone read it?"
Spending a few hours getting these answers will do 2 things...
- Tell you if it is worth doing
- If so it will inspire you to DO.
Ok, how?
There is a great thing on the web called Google...and it's ALL you need for everything really and yes I am serious.
Google is more than "Google"... an oxymoron but it's not JUST a search engine. ;o)
Ok, so you want to at least get some answers to..."how do I start blogging?"
An 8 step plan of ACTION, for now... ;o)
Have a Google account?
If not...Grab one here and choose a user name which remember you can use on everything else I tell you, choose wisely, you will have a Gmail account...this is the email centre of your Google account.
Now you are back...you have a web centre to utilise and it's a huge free asset online to have but more on that another post. ;o)
- First step now you have a Google account, create an IGoogle home page.
This is simple yet will be a big benefit to your time and efforts as well as the learning curve.
Most links are at the top of your Google Gmail inbox, one is IGoogle... ;o)
On this IGoogle homepage you can add stuff...alot of this will be stuff you USE, more on that soon. ;o)
- Second step is to set up a blogger account, clicking the link "more" at the top of your Gmail inbox. First just set up some random dummy blog you wont likely use, just so you can see how it all works, post a tester post, publish it and view it, then click "dashboard".
You can create many blogs in this ONE account, that's why I say don't worry about the first dummy blog.
- On your Google home page or Gmail inbox, click "more" once more (there is alot on that more page) you want to find the "blog search" link.
Lets say your "blog topic" will be around your favourite pastime of baking cakes...
- Set up a unique folder in your bookmarks on your PC, call it "cake baking" or whatever your topic to save all your findings.
Go search for "baking cakes" with " " and without ... baking cakes and see what comes up.
Note how many blogs, how many searches made or anything you see that you can take data from.
Bookmark the blogs, when you look at them really take note of what captures your eye and compels you to read more. Save everything, notes and blogs etc.
- Now do the same with Google web search...again with and without " " a tip...while on the blog search page, with the search topics listed click the "web" link in the top left of the page. Instant search on the web pops up, same topics. ;o)
- Now go to this page here and click add it. Now go to your IGoogle "home page".
Now you can see that module you just added on your IGoogle homepage... this will be your online web centre bookmarks once you are rolling. ;o)
Add to that THIS blog you are reading.. ;o)
- Now go to this page and add it. This will be a very good shortcut to your blog hopping and more. Trust me it will save you all tons of time all this and make things so simple.
Add to the reader and this to your IGoogle homepage.
- Now add this to your IGoogle page....Gmail add on! ;o)
Simple and fast, effective. Go look at your IGoogle page now. See it all on there and yet you also have the option of creating new tabs... Even create a cake baking tab. ;o) Save things to it.
Now you have a nice Google center you can access anywhere.
I'll stop there for now because now I am sure you are going to have some play around etc.
Go ahead have a look at the set up and see how simple and streamlined it is.
After you have had a look around, have a good think about what you could blog about and read other blogs on whatever topic you have thought about. ;o)
Any questions or comments feel free to do so below.
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Rob Sellen @ 4:07 PM, , links to this post
"8 random facts about me"
The lovely Alice "marketing sweetie" Seba has been chasing me!Ok...she tagged me with a meme...same thing anyway! ;o)
The meme is 8 random facts about me.
Do I even know 8 random facts about myself?? ;o)
Lets see...
1. I was a pretty rapid sprinter in my youth running 100 metres in 11.29 secs at 16 years old.
Should have carried on with that, as I'll never know now if I would ever have broken that 10 sec barrier with age and strength...mind you it was handy for getting away from the "navy police" we had here after we would wind them up late at night while they were on "drunk matlow patrol". ;o)
Ah the memories of garden hopping on the naval estate...seeing the navy police gasping and cursing at us as we darted out of sight... and more! Great fun and great times.
2. I am an avid sports fan in the sense I keep up with ALOT of sport and am a keen "paper gambler" meaning I don't bet for real...but do get results for fun. ;o)
I can't not look at sporty side of life, I was really into sports as a kid, football, running, whatever it was I enjoyed it. I am a spurs fan!! Harvey Segal will not speak to me now lol!
I was a good left winger... and the problems we have had for England! sigh did I miss my chance lol!
As an adult I have always been up to date on most sporty things, one of my main likes is F1 motor racing. ;o)
Go Lewis... you will do it this year, and I got the last two years right in paper bets with Alonso!
3. I survived falling down a pot hole at 9!
Made the national news though, strange watching yourself on TV especially with that situation as a kid... ;o)
Most of my old offline mates will remember it well. I feel about 30 ft, head first and landed on a ledge luckily because it was probably over 100 ft deep.
Sadly and I STILL think about this, someone in Italy died that same month falling down a pot hole. I'll never forget that and wish I could find out more about that child.
4. I LOVE pickled onion sandwiches!!
YEP... just plain chopped up pickled onions in bread and butter, this was something my beloved nan made for me when I visited, back then almost daily. TRY IT... ;o)
They go well with chips too... chopped up.
My fantastic nan often made us salmon sandwiches too which were lovely, she made a great stew too...always had at least two bowls of that! :o)
Sigh* I miss nans cooking...looking forward to it next time we see her. ;o)
Love ya nan! I know you will never read this but so what! Still stands. :o)
5. I cant help looking at the moon at night...if it's there I have to stare!
The moon fascinates me, I have no real idea why but it just blows me away to see it, more so when its full around here where I live.
I can happily sit for an hour on the beach looking at the moon and its reflection on the sea.
When my boys were young like a year old I used to sit the doorstep with them and we would look at the moon...they said "moon" pretty young, and "la Luna" not long after! ;o)
I honestly believe the moon effects us in more ways than we realise. :o)
No I don't sprout hair and fangs and howl!
But I do like to party and dance under the moon!
We get it almost every night...
Such a fine and supernatural light...
Every body's feeling warm and bright...
Every body's dancing in the moonlight!
That song sums up how it feels to look at the moon for me! Although cheesy it's pretty spot on lol.
But imagine being there and looking down here!!
6. My life dream has always been to have a "real" book in print!
A book on what? I have no idea...
But I have always dreamt of that, other people having a book on their bookcase with MY name on it?!
I am an avid reader of real books and always will be.
I never miss a thing in books, not like films. ;o)
And MY internal view is better than Hollywood's! ;o)
7. I LOVE a cup of tea!!
Don't ask, I am a Brit! ;o)
I am always drinking the stuff lol, I know only a few people who drink it like I do.
40 teabags don't last long in my house!
A cup in the morning before I can even think...then another to think about what I was thinking about... ;o) Put the kettle on!
8 One of my best online feelings is when I get a donation on this blog.
When I write a post I hope that it gives you readers value or at least a smile or two! ;o)
I live by being honest and rather tell it as it is, honesty goes a long way with almost everyone, there are always a few who will always be dishonest.
When someone buys me a beer using the beer icon below and says in the email notification, "hey I like your blog and writing so I bought you a beer", or "thanks for being so straight up and giving me a better perspective which made me think clearer" or "thanks for putting that straight", it makes everything feel great and inspires me in a big way, far different to selling something, very different.
It's nice to know people like reading this rag! ;o)
Well there are 8 random things about me!
Just an ordinary bloke me!
Now I have to tag a few people, some have ignored tags before for whatever reasons, so hopefully I can pick people with a not to busy time on their hands...
Lynn Terry! Because Lynn always does them and gives value! ;o)
Phil Wiley! Because it's about time I tagged him! ;o)
Martin Avis! Because I bet he has some interesting facts to share with us... ;o)
There ya go folks...looking forward to reading about you.
Thanks to Alice, that cheered me up!! ;o)
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Rob Sellen @ 11:00 PM, , links to this post
"Two faced warriors"
I was going to stop bothering even mentioning the warriors due to the mistreatment I had yet there has been something I felt had to share with those warriors who still read my blog here...and it IS a few of you judging by my blog visit stats.Not surprisingly because of the fact it happens in life everywhere I have encountered some seriously sad backstabbing from the two faced warriors who are simply to stupid to realise that it only hurts them.
Listen up you backstabbing two faced warriors (you know who you are too) , you are NOT hurting me in any sense but you are making yourself look stupid...which you probably are so it's no surprise there.
I will say though you are seriously misguided when you say the warriors is the place to be if you want success...woah there, if you really think so you are as stupid as you sound.
Most people have NEVER heard of the place and yet they have good success...so what gives you that stupid view on things?
The fact you have emailed me calling me alsorts and saying that I am a nobody is not doing anything but making it clear to me what sort of a person you are...not one I would want to know anyway.
What IS surprising is the few who I considered friends who have stabbed me in the back with their two facedness, so they are not really friends as such just users who are a little to stupid to realise they make themselves look bad...I could EASILY name you here for everyone to see....would you like that?
Didn't think so either...so a little warning to you there, that should you feel like emailing me with another load of crap...your name will be on here for all to see!
If you are so sure of the warriors making you rich as you say...why are you bothering with me?
Let me say this...the way you said that you will get rich from the warriors will end up ONE way...you being banned because what one of you said in essence is you plan to rip them off!
Doubt that will go down well lol!
Whatever happens you won't be hurting me because I am not there to be ripped off... ;o)
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Rob Sellen @ 9:39 AM, , links to this post
"New ears"
Ok well not quite new ears but I had a new hearing aid given to me and wow...what an improvement.Glad to know that progress will be so much faster now they are digital.
Strange to see the hearing aid hooked up to the computer for some fine tuning!
I wonder if I can get THAT software! ;o)
It seems my old one was whistling a little constantly, yet not loud enough to hear and it may have been sending me mad!
I have tinnitus anyway now which you learn to ignore which is not easy seeing as it's a constant thing.
The birds sound great out there! :o)
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"The simple things count"
This is the coast path taken during Easter weekend, looking back towards the Bill...I forgot to take the camera this week.... doh! :o(
Nice to see the weather perk up, looking like the summer has re-arrived, it was nice in the early weeks before the rain.
Being the summer holidays I have had the boys over the last few days... and what a great few days. ;o)
Walking around the coast path of the Island...from far away down the path you see above to the point I am taking this one from. ;o)
Quite a walk but well worth it for the views!
Turning around...we face this, as above...and as we have walked back from the Bill we have come closer and closer to this view!
Now is THAT worth the 3 odd mile walk?
Moments like this with the kids, simple yet beautiful are what count. ;o)
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Rob Sellen @ 8:28 PM, , links to this post
"Self examination"
I have to get this right off my chest before it gets out of hand and hopefully by doing this I may learn a little more about myself, I sure need to think about things a little more with recent events.I think in many ways I am a loner, yet in many ways I am also the life and soul of things, anyone who knows me offline will know what I am saying is probably true, a funny sort of contradiction it seems yet a true one at that.
Things have NEVER been easy for me, I know they are rarely easy for anyone but I am ME and can only have real knowledge of that.
I also know IF I want things to improve in life I have to change things to point in that direction and I am not just saying I have to drastically change because it's hard to change overnight but I can at least take things one step at a time which will eventually get me somewhere.
To do this I have to take a good look at myself and the way life has gone for me in general.
Funny thing life!
I digress... anyway, without sounding too "woe is me" let's take a look at things in all honesty as that is the ONLY way I can be...honest.
So... mum got pregnant, caught rubella...causing my deafness, which I would have no other way especially when you consider ANYTHING could have happened to me, so I ain't got the bad deal. ;o)
Being deaf was never gonna be easy by a long stretch, but if I may say so I done pretty good as I talk normal, never used sign language and live as normal as possible.
That has been a problem in itself though in some ways, a constant battle!
In some ways I am my own biggest bloody enemy...THAT I need to change.
School was ok, I liked it and never got bullied too much, no more than I could handle.
But it was the start of the way I became.
There are so many things that people seem to think I don't notice, like if I liked a girl it soon became obvious they liked me, but didn't want a deaf boyfriend!
Yet once ONE girl went out with me, the others wanted me...you know what they are like, want what they can't have!
You know it still happens that, I can be talking to a lady in the pub all going lovely looking like I am getting lucky, then I mishear something and say "oh sorry I should have said half hour ago, I am deaf so I lipread"... bang...they change and I think..."not again, ok sod yer, I am off" and I will just walk away.
Their loss not mine lol!
See..I am not stupid and never was!
Now I lipread the ladies across the bar to see first who likes me... ;o)
But I am getting ahead of myself here, going back to my teens, the age my own sons are now it was a shit time with things at home.
See the little bullying I ever got at school was nothing compared to what my dad gave me and I think 80% of my problems stem from that, they are still having an effect now.
I now realise more why I am the way I am.
See my dad used to hit me in the garage in front of his mates.... these mates were arselickers to my dad. there it is, exactly why I hate arselickers.
He even hit me in front of MY mates...how the hell do you think that made me feel?
It stopped as soon as I hit him back...that fight put my neck out and mum had to take me to hospital where I had a neck brace thing to wear.
These so called mates of my dads don't have anything to do with him now, but they also wont look me in the eye...actually I scare them now I am a big boy.
Yet pick on someone and I WILL stick up for them and it usually cost me too but I will still do it whatever it cost me...is that a bad thing?
So I left school and started my stone masonry apprenticeship...if you know anything you know Freemasons are central to stonemasons...if you "fit" you will be ok, I didn't fit because I hated that other worse masons than me got better work than I did...it's not your skill, it's your arselicking ability!
This is one reason I have not stuck to stone masonry, I don't want to be an angry worker, more so with a bloody great mallet in my hand!
I don't deal with being "told" what to do very well after the shit with my own dad.
Having two sons of that age I was I just cannot fathom ever hitting them...never and they know I will never hit them not for anything.
It's sick and sad...If I saw a man hitting his teenage son, you could be sure I would soon stop it.
My dad being a bully has made ME a better dad.
But it has also screwed me up as a person in some ways.
I am not blaming my dad in some ways because I am sure if he could wind the clock back he would have done things different, no-one gets a trial at this stuff.
But it happened and we have to live with it.
Once I left home at 16 I never spoke to dad for about 6 years, now we don't speak at all.
The strange thing is he hates me!
Even though he was the asshole in all of this, after all there is NO excuse for punching your kids in the face.
He knows NO shame.
He tried to turn my family against me.
Bastard.
I feel bad I have his surname and wish I had not kept it and given it to my sons.
See he is NOT my real dad though he has been there since I was a baby.
Anyway... it seems to explain alot to me about the way I am now and how easy I can get annoyed at things like on the forums.
The majority of my anger IS aimed at the arselicking... I wish I could stop getting annoyed about it.
Hopefully this will explain a few things about me and the way I am.
Any opinions or advice?
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