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Been quiet of late… apt picture too then! 😉

Everyone knows what that sign is I would guess… am I right?

Shitty ears, aka being deaf…

Well, it could always be worse. It does have it’s plus points too. 😉

For me things are getting worse, sadly, been a crappy few weeks really which explains my lack of being busy anywhere… as friends have noticed.

Seems my ears are getting a bit worse, having dropped a bit the last 5 or 6 weeks, the problem is I have less hearing to lose, so I have more to lose if that makes sense?

I know my friend Serena will berate me, saying “sign of getting old” … 😆 I hear ya Serena! … pardon the pun! 😛

It probably IS age related. Oh well. I’ll get by, always have.

But for the first time …

I am at the stage where I am in need of help in some cases, it’s got to the point I can’t hear the damn doorbell at times.

I never been one to let my crap ears beat me, as anyone who knows me knows, I have never been out the the “hearing world”, that IS my world, I grew up just like anyone else, getting on with it and I felt no different in many senses than any of my mates.

I insisted on talking using my mouth and not my hands!

Nothing wrong with signing, it was just something I never did and right from an early age I just “fitted in” you could say … I made it clear at 5 years old where I stood. 🙂

Lip-reading and talking was just swell for me. 🙂

The “deaf world” as they call it was never part of my world, I was never part of theirs. Just the way it was, is.

My mum just let me get on and she did the right thing too in my mind, she has always wanted me to be just like anyone else and getting on with it, being “normal” in a sense…. thanks mum! 🙂

Neither good nor bad, just how life has been for me, mum never joined me up to RNID or anything like that so I never really saw deaf people or their world.

Being part of an island community no doubt helped, the fact we have ONE senior school meant everyone knew me and I knew everyone else and we all knew what the crack was … the ears never really came into it, only the few idiots made it anything.

But … with age comes it’s own issues!

Rewinding back to when I was 25, I woke up one morning and slapped the hearing aid in, on … nothing! 🙁

WTF! … scared me big time, I was sharing a house in north Dorset with a friend and working in Yeovil at the time, so anyway, I told my mate and then set off for work, driving in silence was eerie!

Getting to work and not hearing the yards normal noises hit it home for me… I told my boss and left to go to get checked out at the ENT (ear, nose, throat) dept of the hospital …

I was never the same after that. 🙁

I had scans and tests at the Southampton university for weeks on end… my hearing had permanently dropped some, and I just had to get used to what it was…

Funnily enough, when I had the brain and ear scan I fell asleep in that bloody great noisy scanning machine they have at hospitals… the guy told me it had never happened before… sigh, it was so quiet and I had to be so still. 😛

Nothing was found wrong with me (stop sniggering at the back!) and the path seemed to be leading to having a cochlea implant …

I decided not to in the end, guessing correctly that hearing aids would improve, three years later I got digital ones. Also at the time of considering it, there were little kids behind me in the waiting list and I felt my chance would be better given to one of them.

My hearing had dropped alot, from that morning of nothing some gradually come back over the months, but never at the same level again. Music changed forever.

Now, it’s happened again… got a hearing test in December… not that I need it myself to know what the reality is, it’s mainly to assess the drop.

Shit times! 🙁

Could be worse though! 😉

Always someone who got it worse out there.

But the lack of real support in many cases out there for deaf is shocking. Of all the sense losses and disabilities we seem to be pretty low down on the support list.

I have been in touch with RNID but you know you gotta pay to be a member?

That’s not right in my view, and it’s just my view, it should be free!

Anyway, that’s how things lie with me at the moment, been a crap few weeks and not looking great in the long term considering it gets worse with age.

See what happens, nothing is gonna be the way it was.

So, that’s partly why I have been quiet lately, just not been up to any of this.

My hearing percentage is dropping, again!
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58 thoughts on “My hearing percentage is dropping, again!

  • November 3, 2010 at 6:52 pm
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    Hey not nice at all to hear your problem getting worse. I struggle at the best of times with my hearing, although not to the extent you have. I had several trips to the ENT when I was young, being told I had glue ear and repeatedly having to have my ears washed out… which was awful, thankfully now they dont do it, because, I think that it does cause problems later on in life. I for one hated those blasted hearing tests and quite often still hear that high pitched noise in my ears… and it goes on for what seems like ever. Having had the adeniods out and replaced with grommets, for which only stays in for a short time, I still wouldnt wish that on anyone either! In the end, I do expect to end up wearing a hearing aid… I dont always think that they are a good solution, my mother in law hates using them, but if needs must, then I will cross that bridge when the time arises. Good luck with your test though… but remember, your world might be silent… gosh how I wish mine could be sometimes, but you have a massive family and a gift to bring your words to everyone… you may not be able to hear us, but we love listening to you… xxxxxx

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    • November 3, 2010 at 7:10 pm
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      I knew it would happen sometime… but never ready for it, whatever we do. 🙁

      Hearing aids are great considering what they used to be like, if they help then best to use them. 🙂

      I think gromits and glue ear issues like you mentioned used to be pretty common, I remember a few people who had similar issues at school, not nice. 🙁

      Technology is going so fast that everything can only improve. 😉
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  • November 3, 2010 at 7:37 pm
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    the one thing I am very afraid of getting is tinnitus… my mother in law has it, my mother has it… and it seems so common these days… couldnt stand all that noise in my ears, it drives me batty now… i cant go into clubs anymore, just drives me to distraction!!!

    Thankfully nowadays, they dont treat glue ear like they used too. My daughter Kelsey has slight hearing problem but they wont do much, just test it now and again.

    Pretty appauling though, reading back over your comments, that you have to pay to join the RNID…. they should welcome those with these disabilities with open arms, not be so tied up with greed – what about those who cant afford a joining fee… more like suffering in silence. Totally not fair. It’s not about money, well, it is, but it never used to be…. bloody scrooges the lot of em!!! 🙂

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    • November 3, 2010 at 7:44 pm
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      Oh I have tinnitus too… 🙁
      It’s bad, got worse too… something you just learn to live with, it never goes.

      Sounds like a bloody plane taking off at times…

      Yeah, paying to join a specialist support group AIMED at people it’s supposed to help? Um… odd!

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  • November 3, 2010 at 8:19 pm
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    Hi Rob,

    sorry to learn that your hearing problem is worsening, no wonder you haven’t been around much lately. Some years ago I had a virus and my hearing virtually disappeared, it was a very dark place to be and I was really scared in case it would not come back. People used to have to stand in front of me after nudging me to let me know the wanted to speak to me. Having always had good hearing I felt completely cut off from the world and everyone in it. I couldn’t hear anything at all, but fortunately after a few short weeks (which seemed like years at the time) my hearing fully returned and I was so thankful. I do hope that your test goes well in December and you have my best wishes :o)

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    • November 3, 2010 at 8:50 pm
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      Hi Sylv,

      Thanks, yeah it is scary, does get lonely in your head too. 🙁

      Not good, wouldn’t wish that sort of disconnection to anyone… shows how much people rely on and take for granted communication… as anyone who has lost their voice knows.

      Never a good thing.
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  • November 5, 2010 at 3:22 pm
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    sorry just managed to catch up…. bloody hell, must drive you mad at times!! You’re braver than I could ever be, i’d end up in a nut house!!! lol xx

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    • November 8, 2010 at 11:46 am
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      Almost been that far I think. 😉

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  • November 5, 2010 at 5:27 pm
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    Thanks, Rob, for the update and revelation.

    It’s good for people to know and think outside of themselves some times. Your update removed me from my little box of “what about me” and I’m in a better place for it.

    Is “funnily” a word? It’s new to me and did you define RNID?

    Thanks again for sharing.
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    • November 8, 2010 at 11:50 am
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      Hi kissie,

      Glad to hear that, pardon the pun! 🙂

      Funnily enough, it is a word. 😉
      Questioning English lol when everyone on your side of the pond say a non word like “oftentimes” 😛 that’s… sometimes, or quite often. 😀

      RNID is Royal National Institution for the Deaf. 🙂

      Hope you are well? 🙂

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      • November 8, 2010 at 4:22 pm
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        Yes, you know we have a lot of nerve to question ANYTHING people say. 😉

        I’m good and thanks for checking … don’t be surprised when you see me throwing funnily around in some of my future posts.

        I hope you share some more “unfamiliar” words with me. I’ll take full advantage.

        Until later,
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  • November 8, 2010 at 2:30 am
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    I´m sorry for you.

    But o guess it´s always better something wrong with your ears than something wrong with your eyes.

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    • November 8, 2010 at 11:54 am
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      Yeah, that’s exactly what I have always said. 🙂

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  • November 8, 2010 at 2:42 am
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    Sorry to read about your problems mate..

    But chin up, it could be worse, your willy could drop off… 🙂

    OK I know bad joke.
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    • November 8, 2010 at 11:57 am
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      Aye, then again, that ain’t being used either! 😛

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      • November 8, 2010 at 7:13 pm
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        Know the feeling….

        We could start a “It May as Well Drop Off” club” ??

        🙂

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  • November 10, 2010 at 9:30 pm
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    Did the doctors explain how you started to loose your hearing? I know that something is going to happen that will make your crap week better, something always does. Your strong person for keeping up with your blog even though your having hearing problems.

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    • November 11, 2010 at 3:17 pm
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      Hi James, I was born deaf, I think I had about 20% hearing…. so anything I DO lose from that is a big chunk. 😉

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  • November 19, 2010 at 4:25 pm
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    Hey Rob,

    Sorry about your loss of hearing. I’m sure it must be difficult.

    I wear glasses, and every year my vision seems to get a little worse. My current prescription is outdated — need to visit my optometrist.

    So I can relate to you to some degree. It’s never a good feeling when I realize my vision is getting worse… or I can’t recognize a friend without my glasses on.

    But I never dwell on it, partially because I have a friend who is basically blind. His vision is much worse than mine is. Like you said, no matter how “bad” you have it, there’s always somebody who’s got it worse.

    And that’s why I prefer to count my blessings. 🙂

    Ryan
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    • November 22, 2010 at 3:35 pm
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      Hey Ryan,

      It is shit mate. 😆

      Now get your arse down there and get it sorted, cos you only got one pair of eyes mate! 😉

      Then you can count ya blessings even more. 😉

      But yeah, it only ever going to get worse, seeing as it’s age… *sigh!

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  • November 26, 2010 at 2:52 pm
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    You’re right it sucks you got to be a paying member in order for RNID to assist you. Anything dealing with health should definitely be free, I mean, you can’t put a price on someone’s hearing or life. I hope everything gets better for you and good luck in December with your hearing test. You’re in my prayers.

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  • November 27, 2010 at 12:08 pm
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    Goes to show you how strong you really are Rob! I couldnt comprehend what it must be like for you and many others…I am ashamed to say it…”I, like all good hearing people…. take it for granted” A

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    • December 12, 2010 at 9:32 pm
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      They do mate, then again we all take things for granted. 😉

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  • December 10, 2010 at 2:56 am
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    Hi Rob,

    I just dropped by to say I enjoyed your post.

    I have just one concern though. What do you exactly mean here : “Seems my ears are getting a bit worse, having dropped a bit the last 5 or 6 weeks, the problem is I have less hearing to lose, so I have more to lose if that makes sense?”

    Just curious.lol

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    • December 12, 2010 at 9:28 pm
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      Sorry about the delay, I’ll be explaining that in the next post, the delay that is. 😉

      As for your question, what I mean is, if you lose 15% of what you have, I lose a bigger portion of the overall… more to lose.

      Hope that helps? 🙂

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      • December 20, 2010 at 2:19 pm
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        Hey Rob,

        I’m sorry that it took me a while to visit again this post. Now I understand. Thanks for that one. Looking forward to reading more of your posts.

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  • December 11, 2010 at 2:52 am
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    Rob,
    I am late to this post but lemme tell you this man… I see you around the net… I see what you are about from not just your posts here, but your comments and interactions on other websites too.
    You are a TRUE ASS KICKER man. And ass kickers always kick ass no matter what!
    You are what you are because of your heart, not because of your hearing and THAT is what matters brutha!!!!!!
    Keep your head up and keep kicking ass!
    AL
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    • December 12, 2010 at 9:30 pm
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      Alright me ole mucka… 🙂

      Nice one, that kicked ass. 🙂

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  • December 18, 2010 at 4:13 am
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    I seriously just read that guys comment: “hey chin up mate…. your willy could drop off” that made me bust out laughing.

    Yea my ears will probably go bad because I listen to my music so loud.
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    • January 5, 2011 at 5:37 pm
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      Doubt I’d laugh if it actually happened though… 😛

      Best turn that music down some, you can still enjoy it… but for more of your life that way. 😉
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  • December 22, 2010 at 8:23 pm
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    Dude that is bad….i lost my hearing for a couple of days….a firecracker blew right next to me….nothing happened to me but my hearing was impaired for a couple of days but then it was ok..I hope yours gets better.

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  • December 29, 2010 at 3:38 pm
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    I missed reading your rants out here Rob! Hope all is well at this time. I also noticed that you had some problems with your hosting, since the last time I checked your blog, it was installed on blogger. Anyways, I’ve just dropped by to greet you and your family a Happy New Year (and belated Merry Christmas as well). All the best to your other businesses this coming year!

    Regards,
    Jason

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    • January 5, 2011 at 5:41 pm
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      Hi Jason, happy new year to you too mate. 😉

      Really… it’s not been back to blogger since I left, so you must have been gone a while. 😛

      Been a lazy b*****d and not blogged in a month… oh well, back to the grindstone it is. 😉
      Hows things with you?

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  • December 30, 2010 at 6:37 pm
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    the one thing I am very afraid of getting is tinnitus… my mother in law has it, my mother has it… and it seems so common these days… couldnt stand all that noise in my ears, it drives me batty now… i cant go into clubs anymore, just drives me to distraction!!!

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    • January 5, 2011 at 5:45 pm
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      Tinnitus is bad, but all you can do is learn to live with it, never goes. Sadly. 🙁

      Best to look after your ears and not think about tinnitus, that way, you avoid “making” it become a reality… 🙂
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  • December 31, 2010 at 11:09 am
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    Rob i just love the way to write..with a sort of communicating with your reader..nice post here once again 🙂

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  • January 2, 2011 at 11:47 am
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    Hi Rob,

    Sorry to hear about your hearing. I’ve always had problems with my ears, but not as bad as your experiences thankfully.

    Can’t you reconsider the cochlea transplants now, as it seems you have no alternatives?

    Happy New Year anyway, hope things have improved since this post mate.

    Martin.

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    • January 5, 2011 at 5:48 pm
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      Na, I don’t want implants at all really… rather wait till technology provides a better alternative… 😉
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  • January 13, 2011 at 8:17 pm
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    I really can’t imagine how hard it is to be born without hearing. It might frustrate me and not strive to succeed. I am now starting to have problems with my vision. Probably due to age & constantly in front of my pc. I was hesitant to check with my doctor as I do not want to wear glasses. Anyways, now I am more afraid to loose my sight so I am definitely going. Many thanks to everyone here!
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    • January 14, 2011 at 1:10 am
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      Get them checked out… 😉

      As for me, never known any different, if ya born with it, it’s all you know.

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  • January 15, 2011 at 6:56 am
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    Hey buddy Rob! You have the same case with brother Karl. He’s just 10 years old now and he is already using that hearing aid. Gonna be that hard if you have a low hearing ability.. Hoping to get some remedy for it as soon as possible. Get well soon man! 🙂

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    • January 19, 2011 at 5:15 am
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      Sham to hear that (pardon pun) hope ya brother is ok and I am sure he will not let it get him down, kids are bloody resilient, they cope with almost anything. 🙂

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  • January 17, 2011 at 11:36 am
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    Really enjoyed the rant Rob. Sorry to hear about your bad hearing (no pun inteneded) but what can we do eh, mine’s not the best either to be honest!

    Chin up pal!

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    • January 19, 2011 at 5:16 am
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      Tis just a fact of my life, so nothing that will ruin life for me, I have had to live with it since birth, oh well.. we can’t all be perfect. 😉

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    • January 19, 2011 at 5:17 am
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      You sound like a good friend… 😉

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  • January 18, 2011 at 4:30 am
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    I’m sorry for hearing your problems. Cheer up! smile and everything positive comes. There’s always a divine reason why you have problems like that and I can attest to that. God bless.

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    • January 19, 2011 at 5:18 am
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      Not sure what the divine reason would be, but hey ho, like ya say, chin up… 🙂

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  • January 27, 2011 at 10:40 am
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    Losing any of your five senses is a terrible terrible experience i can understand as i lost my hearing in a car accident.

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  • February 2, 2011 at 8:48 am
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    I’m so sorry for you mate. We know that the most terrible thing that might happen to us is to lose one of our senses. There are things that we could not enjoy anymore which we used to do before. Anyway, just think of it as part of growing up and all of us would eventually experience it also. Don’t lose hope pal, I’m sure our modern technology can do something about it. Keep going!

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